As I sit down to pen these words, it's not just another day of writing, but a significant milestone. Today marks the 40th day of my fast, a period of profound spiritual significance and introspection. This journey has been more than just a fast; it's been a transformative experience, opening my eyes and heart to God's call - a call that's been gently nudging me for years now: the call to write.
You see, for the past 5 years writing has always been an unspoken dream quietly simmering in the background of my pastoral duties. It's an ambition that I've entertained not once, not twice, but this is my third earnest attempt. My previous endeavours to put pen to paper resulted in the beginnings of two books. However, life, as it often does, had other priorities. The joys of church leadership, the responsibilities of preaching, and my commitments to teaching at Scotland Bible School, all these vital aspects of my calling, have meant that writing took a back seat.
But God surprised me again. This prolonged period of fasting, has unexpectedly become a crucible for clarity about writing0 - transforming different message series into books. This was most unexpected.
There's a part of me that leans towards self-publishing, a path that offers a certain freedom and immediacy to share these works. Yet, there's also a whisper in my heart, urging me to explore possibilities beyond, to perhaps send my manuscripts to a few publishers. Who knows what doors God might open?
This third attempt, I believe, is not just a chance occurrence. It's a divine nudge, a reassurance that this is indeed a part of my journey that the Lord wants me to embark upon. The question of 'how' still lingers - how will I find the time amidst the myriad responsibilities that come with leading a church, preaching, and teaching? But when God stirs your heart, He also paves the way. It's a leap of faith, a step into the unknown, trusting that He who calls also provides.
Will this third attempt reach the finish line? One of the things I often tell myself at moments like this is, "Never stop restarting the right things." I hope this restart will finally be the beginning that get's me past the finish line but time will tell. Just because I've never finished a book before doesn't mean it's not worth trying again especially when I feel once again nudged by God in this direction.
You can follow the journey here. Will this be my last blog post... who even knows?
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